Wobbly legs

My whole life, I've been overweight.  The "turning point" for me was one summer spent in Missouri at my grandparents house when I was 5 or so. I went a skinny little kid, and I came home not fitting into any of my clothes.  Hello, elastic waist bands!

Ever since, I've been pretty self conscious about my weight.  But what adolescent/teenage girl isn't?  Looking back, I probably shouldn't have felt this way.

Kind of a bad picture, but why did I think I was fat?
Also, why am I dancing with that piñata?

No lie, at the time this picture was taken, I believed I was fat. Of course, I believe I'm fat now, and every time I say it Mike scoffs at me and shakes his head in disbelief. So maybe I've never seen myself as clearly as I should.

Whether I am "fat" or not, I KNOW that I am overweight. I like to eat, and I don't like to exercise.  And worse, I like to eat the "bad stuff", ie sweets and carbs! They are the best! But not for my health!

I think the average bride-to-be, whatever her size, is concerned about her wedding day weight. You want to look your best on the one day in your life where you get super dolled up and get photographed thousands of times. That may mean losing 5 pounds, or lots of pounds. For me, it's lots!

See the chin and neck fat? You should see the rest of me!

In the past, I've had success losing weight by running, and by watching what I ate. But it was pretty minimal, and I don't just want to just be at a good weight, I want to be healthier and stronger.

So, I decided I needed help.  Specifically, help from Carlos, the gym owner/trainer that Mike and his family work with.  The family that works out together, stays (fit) together? Well I guess I am a part of the family now, so it's fitting that I would go to Carlos.

Today was my first appointment with him.  We focused on the lower body, and I am fairly confident that come tomorrow, walking will be difficult.  That's how you know it's working, right? No pain, no gain?  He wasn't even that hard on me! Goodness, I must be very out of shape.

I can't say I'm looking forward to Thursday's appointment with Carlos, but I am looking forward to the long term results that will follow!